true joy

Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning. :)

Psalm 30:5b

"I will bless the Lord at all times, His praise shall continually be in my mouth." Psalm 34:1

These words are so easy to memorize, to say, and yet so hard to do.

On days when things just go right for me. When the test I had was easy, or when the bus I take home everyday is especially fast. These are the days when the verse is easily done, because my circumstances are good and comfortable.

However on the days where nothing seems to go my way, or when all the blame is pushed on me and I can do nothing about it, or with horrible weather (Singapore's so hot and rainy nowadays!), that 'joy' is so easily swept away into the dark dusty corners of my mind.

That's not the kind of joy that I want to have. I want to truly, truly find a joy that is constantly there, unchanging because it's from God Himself. A joy that comes because my God lives, because He hears when I call out to Him, because He loves me despite my inadequacies.

(a joy that never leaves vs. a joy that you feel when eating your favourite chocolates..)

I've to pray so much more for God to make Himself my central source of joy. Not circumstances, not how good life may be, but He Himself. Ü

"There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring

And though the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling

How can I keep from singing Your praise
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing

I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Savior lives

And I will walk with You
Knowing You'll see me through
And sing the songs You give"

(How Can I Keep from Singing - Chris Tomlin)